WANNA BE Most of us, I am sure have - a one time or another - openly wished for things we would have liked to do or be
Call it a youthful time of "day dreaming," if you like; let stark realism drive such thoughts away; lose them all forever; let so-called "common-sense" take possession of the entire fabric our physical, emotional and mental or dream world which existed at one time . You, each, at some point in life, have been challenged by others to justify your personal preferences in your future. Unable to deal with conventional bounds of reasoning, we agree to seek avoid all mentions or allusions to our private "plans" for the remaining portion of our life.
Peace was established by such a urged disavowal of destiny you saw for your life. You "signed" an armistice, rather than a treaty and gave up outward manifestations of your interest and concern for your future. Or, did you do even that much?
Many of us "kept our fingers crossed" when agreeing to change our outward manner. All of us, to a degree have maintained a modicum of memories of thoughts and sensations of which this treasury of yesterday's ambitions which drove many to such a change.
People are what they have been. They are what they have been in the
form of stream of their ancestors have been and have done or we wanted to be or do. The are what they are now , to borrow a phrase from the Maker's book "I am what I am!" You are what you are!". You are intrinsically unique. Am what self-approved Master of your way has decreed that you, now -as an "adult" - know your precise placement among all humans in creation?
If, in my case, some Norse man had not dreamed of crossing the western seas to the beautiful islands he heard returning Viking warriors talk about, I might today be setting out to ford a ford at this moment if his descendants had not longed to go ,next ,to Ireland then to America, I might now be peeling neeps and skinning prawns; fording a fiord or basking in a burst of sunlight at Bangor-by-the-Irish Sea.
Why do we, so often, wonder who we are in Time what the individual
purpose for being here at all is, was or will be. If you have such thoughts at times, it could be that you are searching your childhood memories for hints about the wonderful, well-planned Golden Days of life that were to be.
Pay attention, too. Remember, you are what you were. You are what you have been, and there is no one exactly like you in all of Creation.
Andrew McCaskey amccsr@adelphia.net 10-26-06 [c464wds]
